So Cade you are 9 years old right now and i have decided to blog to you from time to time. You may be well past 9yrs. old when you read this.
It's funny; I have felt for the longest time such a connection to you, a sense of pride but also worry too... Cade i am soooo proud that i am able to be your dad; i love so and think about you all the time and i already am realizing that i only have such a short time with you before your gone and grown into a man.
Know Son that i know i am harder on you than your sister, i don't mean to be; maybe it's because your the first born, im not exactly sure but even though i do this, i am trying to shape you into a person that can stand on his own when you are on your own.... I see so much of myself in you and i think this has a part to play in it.
Your so little now yet i can see how you strive to be so much older than you are... i too was this way when i was young; slow down my young tiger, i dont want you to grow so fast. One thing that i pray is that you learn to not be afraid to stand up to those who pick on those who are not as fortunate as you and even more that you never enter into the bullying world.
Cade i was a bully when i was young and i tell you with great remorse, there is no lonelier life... it never pays to lift yourself up at the cost of others.
Son, i am such a failure on so many levels but i love you and all i have is the hope that God can and will take all the mistakes i have made and will make and turn them into something good in you...
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